#11

My ol' friend from primary school IMed me on fb.
We haven't meet each other for quite a long time since I continued my secondary school in Perak.
So, yeah, we had lot to chat about.
Suddenly she asked me, "You still dance?"


Okay, there we go.
I was clueless.
And was bout to cry in front of my lappy.


Ya Allah, how I miss dancing. 
How I miss the studio.


 Hmm.


I seldom dance now because I've gained weight.
My thighs's getting big. HAHA.


Maybe because I haven't do sports for quite a time. 
Yeah, no swimming partners ; Elmo, Syu, Ayun, Suliana, Kak Farah and etc.
and of course, no more hockey.


Hmm. That is another thing that I miss the most. Hockey playing!
I miss my team. Ah.


Dancing?
Oh I remember, I did dance here in UiTM.
Twice actually. Last semester.


First it was for FESKOM (i can't remember how to spell it) LOL
And secondly, it was for Cultural Village.


Two different dance. For the first one, it was flashmob. Damn, I love the choreography! Catchy!
And another one was a traditional dance, Negeri Perlis punya tarian. (Okay, honestly, i spoiled this one!)


I miss the moment when my friends and I did that crazy KPop Dance fer an event at MJSC KT. I was Form Five if I'm not mistaken.
And the funniest part was, the audience were all girls BUT we still have to wear tudung!
Ahuh! Dancing to KPop song wearing tudung!
How crazy that was! HAHA LOL LOL LOL


Ah. I have to slim down my body back to when I was in secondary school. HAHA.
I'm not that freaking slim back then, but I really love my body that way.


Tengoklah sekarang. Hmm. Fat tyre's everywhere!!


I really wanna dance back.


I'm thinking of signing back to any dance studio when I'm taking degree nanti. :)
InsyaAllah.


#now I really miss my school memory.
either from primary, or secondary.
I MISS BOTH!


I wanna look into my ol' album.
I remember having that picture of me when I first started dancing.
Masa tadika! I was only 6 at that time.


Will upload later!

#10

I did a little bit of changes here in my blog.

I changed the layout, the design, the background and some other stuff.

Saja nak bagi nampak fresh and kemas sikit. :)

I’m choosing white as the main colour.

Nampak suci sikit en?

Haha.

Nak bagitaw tu ja.
Bye !

#9

Tubuhku menggeletar,
Di hati rasa berdebar
Apabila kau muncul menjelma di depan mata
Aku ketandusan kata kerana lidah rasa kelu
Ku cuba tepis perasaan tapi hati menuntut
Apakah sudah masuk musim cinta?

Katakan kenapa kau buat malamku sukar untuk tidur
Menanti esok tiba untuk berjumpa
Katakan kenapa kau buat siangku asyik mengelamun
Kepingin untuk bersama denganmu
Katakan kenapa?

Ku jatuh hati padamu
Mataku tidak lekang tak jemu-jemu memandang
Bak kata mereka ‘Yang terbaik dari ladang’
Memberikan perasaan teruja yang menggoda jiwa
Setabah mana hati akhirnya pasti mengalah
Apakah sudah masuk musim cinta?

Kepingin untuk bersama denganmu
Katakan kenapa?

#8

I’m smiling while writing this.

Haaa. Nak taw kenapa adik adik? HAHA.

Sorry , tengah sewel ni.

Em, okay.

This happened before the CNY holiday.

Miera, Kiera and I were on our way to Dang Anum. I wanna pick up some of my belongings at their room.

Banyak jugak barang kat bilik depa sebab dah beberapa hari tidoq situ.

Nak dijadikan cerita, time kami duk jalan tu, kami lalu tempat parking kereta dekat dengan masjid.

Mata aku straight pandang depan saja, tapi tiba tiba rasa nak pandang kanan.

So, aku pandang la.

Then aku stop jalan.

Miera and Kiera pun stop. Mereka confuse.

Then aku dgn excited nya cakap, eh, itu B*V1**1.

But depa still confuse.

Aku pun jerit lah, “ITU KERETA OP!!”

Then depa buat muka OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Kami pun teruskan perjalanan.

Depa singgah kat Syahby sebab nak beli Uncle BOB.

Aku diam ja. Nak taw sebab apa?

Haaa. Ada sesuatu bermain kat kepala otak aku yang sangal ni.

Aku mintak Miera and Kiera pen dengan kertas. Tapi depa kata ada kat bilik.

Takpa, aku tunggu sampai bilik.

Then bila dah kat bilik, apa lagi, aku capai marker dgn kertas.

Kertas warna biru, Kiera yang bagi.

Marker warna coklat, Miera yang punya.

Aku start tulis. 

*UB - Ulat Bulu GMY - Gonna Miss You.

Then aku tanya depa, “Eh, okay tak ni? Tak over ke? Agak agak dia suka tak?”

Depa dah geleng kepala. HAHA.

Takpa, aku nekad.

Lepas aku hantaq Kiera balik, aku salam, cium Miera apa semua, then aku pun gerak ah nak balik Tun Kudu.

On the way balik tu lah, aku jalankan projek.

aku pi lah kat kete dia. Lama jugak aku kat situ.

Aku duk fikir,mana nak letak note ni. Aku tak pernah la pulak buat kerja gila macam ni.

Then aku fikir lagi, macam mana klu note ni terbang? Klu orang lain amik macam  mana? Aku nak lipat ke tak surat ni? Nak selit kat wiper belah kanan kiri?

Ah, macam macam lagi lah aku fikir.

Tapi then aku cakap kat diri sendiri, AH, BANTAI JA!

Lepas aku letak kat wiper kereta dia, aku blah.

Dah dua tiga langkah aku jalan, TIBA TIBA aku Nampak sesorang.

Wei, sumpah aku rasa muka mamat tu sama macam OP.

Sumpah wei sumpah.

Sebab aku cuak sangat, aku pun terus pusing belakang, patah balik nak lalu jalan dekat masjid.

Wei, kalau itu DIA macam mana? Tak ke kantoi? Tak ke malu? AHHH.

#sampai sekarang aku tataw whether itu dia ke tak.

Then aku terus call Miera, text Kiera and Daus.

Sumpah malu . haha.

Lagi tambah malu bila dia upload gambar dia pegang note tu kat FB.

*blushing 10jam aku taw! HAHA.

I'm glad that you're happy receiving it. :)

I'm home , and I miss you Sepet! <3

#7

Me wanna learn how to bake.

Chocolate cake as he said he like it.

But emm, yelah. 

Me? Bake? I can't even cook rice properly.

HAHA.

But I'll try. 

He encouraged me. 

Still waiting for the recipe which I asked from Adib and Kiera. :)

#6

We had dinner together again tonight. 


It was my last night before I go back.


I really wanted to see him.


I wanna text him , but I'm just too afraid.
So, I asked Daus.


He invited OP over for dinner. 


And, and, and, HE SAT NEXT TO ME. 


Aigooo. 
Nervous lah.


Yep. Still nervous.
Jantung macam nak gugut. Daymmnnn. HAHA


We talked, and had a great night. 


I just decided not to take 10days holidays as what I've planned.
Yelah. 
Gila.
How can I not see him for that long!
LOL


Ah, I must have been crazy right?


Because of you.
Yeah, YOU lah. Sepet. -.- HAHA


Till then, :)

#5

Did I just meet my prince?

the one who will make me feel like a princess?

His princess?

Keep dreamin lah Tra.

He didn't like you pun.

Aigooo.

I should just keep this feelings to myself.

Time will tell.

Will he be mine?

Or this will just prove that I am just that person who always fall to a wrong person, at a wrong time. T__T

#4

I was with Daus and Kiera, walking to Paklah. 

Then Daus said , ' Tra, ni asal pakai varsity besar besar ni. Selekeh taw. Suka pakai besar besar'.

I replied, ' Ala, biar lah. Biasa i pakai you tak bebel pun. Haiyoo. Macam mak. Hahaha.'.

Then guess what he said?!

' Yela, malam ni u kena cantik cantik sikit, jgn la nk selekeh macam biasa. OP dinner dgn kita japgi.'

What??!

Sumpah aku nganga 40cm luasnya.

Gila. Ini gila.

Ah, aku tak kisah pun dengan apa aku pakai, sebab aku adalah aku.

Varsity besar, jersi besar gedabak.

Kadang kadang mereka pun rimas, tapi yeah, AKU TETAP AKU.

Janji aku selesa en en en?

ok ok. 

back to the story.

regarding OP having dinner with us us.

itu yang bermain kat fikiran actually.

pasal pakaian, lantak lah.i have to be myself kenn.

hadoy, tapi macam mana ni. nk dinner dgn OP.

bapak segan ahh.

HAHA.

Whatever it is, we had such a great night.

Well, I DO.

HAHA.

Getting to look at him, is all I ever wanted.

#wah, ayat bukan main. LOl

Till then, TOODLES!

#3

Tonight was fun.

I'm fucking happy tonight.

OHHEMMMGEEEE.

Guess what just happened? 

I had dinner with OP!!

Damn, i was so excited.

I didn't thought that i might see him at Laksy tonight.

Because at first, he was supposed to have dinner with Naffiz at Paklah.

But because PakLah was so packed,  they changed their dinner place.

To LAKSY!!

When Naffiz told me that maybe OP is coming, my hearts fluttered.

I know he' not coming to see me, or having dinner with me ke apa, but

I'm just thrilled that I CAN see him!

I sat at my place quietly while waiting for him.

Guess Sophia and Daus were feeling weird why I'm acting so nervous!

LOL

Then there he came.

I cannot put myself up, to look at him because I'm suddenly freaking out.

Can you believe that? Me? Athira Zainudin ; suddenly acting that way?! HAHA

Okay. he came to our table, greeting Daus and all. 

He went around greeting everyone he knew and GUESS WHAT?

He sat with us.

A-Huh!

SAT WITH US!

AT OUR TABLE!

I swear my heart is about to explode.

Kidding me? My crush is sitting freaking near to me?

Gosh, I'm dying. 

Seriously i keep on looking down at my plate je. 

Wei.

Malu lah. serious.

Korang pernah rasa tak macam ni?

Haahaha.

I don't talk much because I was so afraid.

But I'm happy enough that he's willing to sit with us. 

Thanks Daus, Naffiz, Miera, and all. :)

Oh, wanna know the craziest part???

I took the straw he used. 

HAHA.

PS : I bend the straw so I can squeeze it into my purse. LOL LOL LOL 

Funny and crazee aite?

Well, that's me. 

I consider every little thing as memorable. :)

#2

It was Wednesday.
 I have KO.
And as you may know, I am in the Drama Club.
Our club meeting was held at Dataran Keris today. I was late, so I was like in a rush.
#Yelah, Director lambat, memang kena bahan lah kan. HAHA.


Okay back to the story. 
I was climbing up the library stairs, when I was on my way to Dataran Keris, and 
what happen was; I SAW HIM. 


Him, who?
My crush. OP. LOL


I saw him and I was like stunning, looking at his eyes.
Those pairs of eyes which I haven’t seen for two days! 
My heart fluttered. What a great day today was!
I’ve been wanting to see him since the last time, and God gave me the chance. :)
# I really hope he didn’t notice that I was staring at him. LOL


I knew he was also in his second semester like I am, but I’m not sure in what club. 
Dugh, this is getting worse.
Why do I want to know more about him?
It’s not like he know me pun. 


Pathetic Athira.
Always fall to a wrong person.
Damn, I’m such a loser. Haha.


#looking forward to ACCIDENTLY meet him again. 

#1

I just start to write again. I really thought I won't have the courage to write anymore. But, hey, here you are, still reading my little piece of junks. :)

Why?

Simply because i found a brand-new spirit.

There’s this one guy.

Seriously, I don’t know him.

But I often heard his name from Miera, Daus, and Kiera.

OP.

That’s what they called him. Simple, plain, OP.

My friends often gossiped about him.

As I don’t know him, I remained silent every time they mentioned his name.

And here comes this one day.

It was Monday.

My friends and I, we were at the Pasar Malam.

Wandering around, when suddenly we met Haikal.

We talked, and talked, and talked.

Tiba tiba!

Haaaaa!

Datang tangan out of nowhere, trying to touch Haikal’s hand which is injured to some minor accident.

As reflex, I accidently push that hand away.

#my mistakes, for not knowing that THE HAND was just trying to joke around.

At that very moment, I looked at him. The owner of THE HAND.

And, there he goes, THAT PARTICULAR GUY named OP.

He has this cute, sepet pair of eyes. That caught my eyes. Deep. :)

And that face I saw just for a few seconds at that time, REMAIN in my heart until now.

Last.

All this time I was wasting, hoping you would come around.
I've been giving out chances every time, and all you do is let me down.
And it's taking me this long, but I figured you out.
And you're thinking we'll be fine again?No, not this time around.
You don't have to call anymore.Because I won't pick up the phone.
This is the last straw.I don't wanna hurt anymore.
You can say that you're sorryBut I don't believe you.
Like I did before.Because you're not sorry.
Looking so innocent.I might believe you if I didn't know.
Could've loved you all my lifeIf you hadn't left me waiting in the cold. 
And you got your share of secrets.And I'm tired of being last to know.And now you're asking me to listen?
Cause it's worked each time before.
You had me falling for you honey.And it never would've gone away, NO.You used to shine so bright.But I watched all of it fade.

I wonder why. 

Was it because your mom doesn't like me?

Was it because I'm not good enough?

You should've said something.

Instead of keeping those secrets from me.

This is the end. 

I wanna put an end to this.

I thought you would never want to hurt my feelings. 

Guess I was wrong.

Thanks for everything.

Once yours,

ATHIRA.