#14

Friends : Lately you jarang pakai your spectacles. Why Tra?
Me : Saja. *smiling*



Well, there's a reason actually :)


My eyes are the reason why I fall for him at the first place.
I don't want it to happen twice.
Because I don't want to fall for anyone again.
I don't wanna replace him in my heart.
I want to keep him safe and secure in it.
Although I totally understand that we coudn't be together anymore.


Tapi dia selalu cakap , " Kalau ada jodoh, ada lah "
So yeah, if we're meant to be together, InsyaAllah it will happen one day.


But for now, I've made my decision.
Made up my mind.
I've closed my heart.
I won't open it for anyone else. For now.
I've locked him and our memories being together in it.
Till I found someone who can really heal this deep wound in my heart, I'll lock it.
I'll lock my heart tightly and threw the key to some where only I know.


Cause for now, I want to love only him.


MSMY.

#13

Last week we were like the most sweetest and cutest couple around.
Envied by most of our friends.


But see how things changed just in a blink of our eyes?


There's no more US now.


It have been couples of days, still I can't believe it.


I've lost you.


The one I've been adoring of.
The one I've been dreaming of.
The one I've been thinking of.


But yeah, this is our decision kan?
For our own good.


It's all over now.


We have to go on our own now I guess.
This is the path we choose.


But one thing you should know, I never regret having you.
Being with you in just a month means the whole world to me.
Thanks for all the joy and happiness you brought into my life during the time we're together.


I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done.
I know I 'm not good enough for you.


I want you to be happy okay?
Take good care of yourselves.


Goodbye, Love.






P/S :  I love you no matter what happen

#12

Dear Saiful Farid Amri, my exboyfriend

Six years.

You knew me for that long, and yet this relationship have to end that way.

I can't believe how can you easily throw away all of our memories being together?

The hardship and happiness we went together. Doesn't it mean anything to you?

The sacrifices I made? Sacrifices you made?

Ah, bullshit.

I'm disappointed with you like seriously.

You knew me very well that you should know how in earth am I gonna get through my life without you.

Its awkward at the first place.

And I hate you so so much for turning me into such a pathetic person.

Decided. Not gonna forgive you for the rest of my life. 

I might gonna miss you some times.

Its a lie if I say I'm not.

But trust me, you means nothing me at all. 

Saiful Farid Amri,


I wish that I never met you.

Then there would be no need to impress you.

No need to want you.

No need for loving you.

No need for crying over you.

No need for heartbreaks.

No need for pain or tears.

But then again . . .

I'm glad I did meet you six years ago.

Cause you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong.

You were the one who loved me for me.

The one who cared when everyone else didn't.

The one who listened.

The one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest shit ever.

You were the one who I told secrets to.

The one who taught me new things.

The one who laughed at my bad jokes.

The one who skyped with me at any chance we had.

The one who did things, just for me.

We had known each other for that freaking long six years kan?

and it's funny how things had changed.

And sometimes, when I come to my sense, it's actually saddening.

Thanks for ditching me. 

With Love, your exgirlfriend, Athira.

With Hate, your exgirlfriend, Athira.

#11

My ol' friend from primary school IMed me on fb.
We haven't meet each other for quite a long time since I continued my secondary school in Perak.
So, yeah, we had lot to chat about.
Suddenly she asked me, "You still dance?"


Okay, there we go.
I was clueless.
And was bout to cry in front of my lappy.


Ya Allah, how I miss dancing. 
How I miss the studio.


 Hmm.


I seldom dance now because I've gained weight.
My thighs's getting big. HAHA.


Maybe because I haven't do sports for quite a time. 
Yeah, no swimming partners ; Elmo, Syu, Ayun, Suliana, Kak Farah and etc.
and of course, no more hockey.


Hmm. That is another thing that I miss the most. Hockey playing!
I miss my team. Ah.


Dancing?
Oh I remember, I did dance here in UiTM.
Twice actually. Last semester.


First it was for FESKOM (i can't remember how to spell it) LOL
And secondly, it was for Cultural Village.


Two different dance. For the first one, it was flashmob. Damn, I love the choreography! Catchy!
And another one was a traditional dance, Negeri Perlis punya tarian. (Okay, honestly, i spoiled this one!)


I miss the moment when my friends and I did that crazy KPop Dance fer an event at MJSC KT. I was Form Five if I'm not mistaken.
And the funniest part was, the audience were all girls BUT we still have to wear tudung!
Ahuh! Dancing to KPop song wearing tudung!
How crazy that was! HAHA LOL LOL LOL


Ah. I have to slim down my body back to when I was in secondary school. HAHA.
I'm not that freaking slim back then, but I really love my body that way.


Tengoklah sekarang. Hmm. Fat tyre's everywhere!!


I really wanna dance back.


I'm thinking of signing back to any dance studio when I'm taking degree nanti. :)
InsyaAllah.


#now I really miss my school memory.
either from primary, or secondary.
I MISS BOTH!


I wanna look into my ol' album.
I remember having that picture of me when I first started dancing.
Masa tadika! I was only 6 at that time.


Will upload later!

#10

I did a little bit of changes here in my blog.

I changed the layout, the design, the background and some other stuff.

Saja nak bagi nampak fresh and kemas sikit. :)

I’m choosing white as the main colour.

Nampak suci sikit en?

Haha.

Nak bagitaw tu ja.
Bye !

#9

Tubuhku menggeletar,
Di hati rasa berdebar
Apabila kau muncul menjelma di depan mata
Aku ketandusan kata kerana lidah rasa kelu
Ku cuba tepis perasaan tapi hati menuntut
Apakah sudah masuk musim cinta?

Katakan kenapa kau buat malamku sukar untuk tidur
Menanti esok tiba untuk berjumpa
Katakan kenapa kau buat siangku asyik mengelamun
Kepingin untuk bersama denganmu
Katakan kenapa?

Ku jatuh hati padamu
Mataku tidak lekang tak jemu-jemu memandang
Bak kata mereka ‘Yang terbaik dari ladang’
Memberikan perasaan teruja yang menggoda jiwa
Setabah mana hati akhirnya pasti mengalah
Apakah sudah masuk musim cinta?

Kepingin untuk bersama denganmu
Katakan kenapa?

#8

I’m smiling while writing this.

Haaa. Nak taw kenapa adik adik? HAHA.

Sorry , tengah sewel ni.

Em, okay.

This happened before the CNY holiday.

Miera, Kiera and I were on our way to Dang Anum. I wanna pick up some of my belongings at their room.

Banyak jugak barang kat bilik depa sebab dah beberapa hari tidoq situ.

Nak dijadikan cerita, time kami duk jalan tu, kami lalu tempat parking kereta dekat dengan masjid.

Mata aku straight pandang depan saja, tapi tiba tiba rasa nak pandang kanan.

So, aku pandang la.

Then aku stop jalan.

Miera and Kiera pun stop. Mereka confuse.

Then aku dgn excited nya cakap, eh, itu B*V1**1.

But depa still confuse.

Aku pun jerit lah, “ITU KERETA OP!!”

Then depa buat muka OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Kami pun teruskan perjalanan.

Depa singgah kat Syahby sebab nak beli Uncle BOB.

Aku diam ja. Nak taw sebab apa?

Haaa. Ada sesuatu bermain kat kepala otak aku yang sangal ni.

Aku mintak Miera and Kiera pen dengan kertas. Tapi depa kata ada kat bilik.

Takpa, aku tunggu sampai bilik.

Then bila dah kat bilik, apa lagi, aku capai marker dgn kertas.

Kertas warna biru, Kiera yang bagi.

Marker warna coklat, Miera yang punya.

Aku start tulis. 

*UB - Ulat Bulu GMY - Gonna Miss You.

Then aku tanya depa, “Eh, okay tak ni? Tak over ke? Agak agak dia suka tak?”

Depa dah geleng kepala. HAHA.

Takpa, aku nekad.

Lepas aku hantaq Kiera balik, aku salam, cium Miera apa semua, then aku pun gerak ah nak balik Tun Kudu.

On the way balik tu lah, aku jalankan projek.

aku pi lah kat kete dia. Lama jugak aku kat situ.

Aku duk fikir,mana nak letak note ni. Aku tak pernah la pulak buat kerja gila macam ni.

Then aku fikir lagi, macam mana klu note ni terbang? Klu orang lain amik macam  mana? Aku nak lipat ke tak surat ni? Nak selit kat wiper belah kanan kiri?

Ah, macam macam lagi lah aku fikir.

Tapi then aku cakap kat diri sendiri, AH, BANTAI JA!

Lepas aku letak kat wiper kereta dia, aku blah.

Dah dua tiga langkah aku jalan, TIBA TIBA aku Nampak sesorang.

Wei, sumpah aku rasa muka mamat tu sama macam OP.

Sumpah wei sumpah.

Sebab aku cuak sangat, aku pun terus pusing belakang, patah balik nak lalu jalan dekat masjid.

Wei, kalau itu DIA macam mana? Tak ke kantoi? Tak ke malu? AHHH.

#sampai sekarang aku tataw whether itu dia ke tak.

Then aku terus call Miera, text Kiera and Daus.

Sumpah malu . haha.

Lagi tambah malu bila dia upload gambar dia pegang note tu kat FB.

*blushing 10jam aku taw! HAHA.

I'm glad that you're happy receiving it. :)

I'm home , and I miss you Sepet! <3