#12

Dear Saiful Farid Amri, my exboyfriend

Six years.

You knew me for that long, and yet this relationship have to end that way.

I can't believe how can you easily throw away all of our memories being together?

The hardship and happiness we went together. Doesn't it mean anything to you?

The sacrifices I made? Sacrifices you made?

Ah, bullshit.

I'm disappointed with you like seriously.

You knew me very well that you should know how in earth am I gonna get through my life without you.

Its awkward at the first place.

And I hate you so so much for turning me into such a pathetic person.

Decided. Not gonna forgive you for the rest of my life. 

I might gonna miss you some times.

Its a lie if I say I'm not.

But trust me, you means nothing me at all. 

Saiful Farid Amri,


I wish that I never met you.

Then there would be no need to impress you.

No need to want you.

No need for loving you.

No need for crying over you.

No need for heartbreaks.

No need for pain or tears.

But then again . . .

I'm glad I did meet you six years ago.

Cause you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong.

You were the one who loved me for me.

The one who cared when everyone else didn't.

The one who listened.

The one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest shit ever.

You were the one who I told secrets to.

The one who taught me new things.

The one who laughed at my bad jokes.

The one who skyped with me at any chance we had.

The one who did things, just for me.

We had known each other for that freaking long six years kan?

and it's funny how things had changed.

And sometimes, when I come to my sense, it's actually saddening.

Thanks for ditching me. 

With Love, your exgirlfriend, Athira.

With Hate, your exgirlfriend, Athira.