#14

Friends : Lately you jarang pakai your spectacles. Why Tra?
Me : Saja. *smiling*



Well, there's a reason actually :)


My eyes are the reason why I fall for him at the first place.
I don't want it to happen twice.
Because I don't want to fall for anyone again.
I don't wanna replace him in my heart.
I want to keep him safe and secure in it.
Although I totally understand that we coudn't be together anymore.


Tapi dia selalu cakap , " Kalau ada jodoh, ada lah "
So yeah, if we're meant to be together, InsyaAllah it will happen one day.


But for now, I've made my decision.
Made up my mind.
I've closed my heart.
I won't open it for anyone else. For now.
I've locked him and our memories being together in it.
Till I found someone who can really heal this deep wound in my heart, I'll lock it.
I'll lock my heart tightly and threw the key to some where only I know.


Cause for now, I want to love only him.


MSMY.

#13

Last week we were like the most sweetest and cutest couple around.
Envied by most of our friends.


But see how things changed just in a blink of our eyes?


There's no more US now.


It have been couples of days, still I can't believe it.


I've lost you.


The one I've been adoring of.
The one I've been dreaming of.
The one I've been thinking of.


But yeah, this is our decision kan?
For our own good.


It's all over now.


We have to go on our own now I guess.
This is the path we choose.


But one thing you should know, I never regret having you.
Being with you in just a month means the whole world to me.
Thanks for all the joy and happiness you brought into my life during the time we're together.


I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done.
I know I 'm not good enough for you.


I want you to be happy okay?
Take good care of yourselves.


Goodbye, Love.






P/S :  I love you no matter what happen

#12

Dear Saiful Farid Amri, my exboyfriend

Six years.

You knew me for that long, and yet this relationship have to end that way.

I can't believe how can you easily throw away all of our memories being together?

The hardship and happiness we went together. Doesn't it mean anything to you?

The sacrifices I made? Sacrifices you made?

Ah, bullshit.

I'm disappointed with you like seriously.

You knew me very well that you should know how in earth am I gonna get through my life without you.

Its awkward at the first place.

And I hate you so so much for turning me into such a pathetic person.

Decided. Not gonna forgive you for the rest of my life. 

I might gonna miss you some times.

Its a lie if I say I'm not.

But trust me, you means nothing me at all. 

Saiful Farid Amri,


I wish that I never met you.

Then there would be no need to impress you.

No need to want you.

No need for loving you.

No need for crying over you.

No need for heartbreaks.

No need for pain or tears.

But then again . . .

I'm glad I did meet you six years ago.

Cause you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong.

You were the one who loved me for me.

The one who cared when everyone else didn't.

The one who listened.

The one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest shit ever.

You were the one who I told secrets to.

The one who taught me new things.

The one who laughed at my bad jokes.

The one who skyped with me at any chance we had.

The one who did things, just for me.

We had known each other for that freaking long six years kan?

and it's funny how things had changed.

And sometimes, when I come to my sense, it's actually saddening.

Thanks for ditching me. 

With Love, your exgirlfriend, Athira.

With Hate, your exgirlfriend, Athira.